life as it comes....

as i have written a little awhile back, i have (mentioned) that i have seven friends. all of us have different lives to deal with, different principles, different personalities, and different outlooks in life. but despite those differences, we manage to get along fine. but like any other relationships, there are also some ups and downs and sometimes one party gets hurt but the other's remarks or deeds. but still at the end of the day, you're still good friends no matter what.
anyway, i would like to tell you about one of them. she is like me, she has (and i think still have) depression. i know, even if she doesn't tell me, i can see it in her eyes. i can feel it in her voice but i chose not to ask further. why? i fell it will be too intrusive. i never ask. i usually wait for anyone (my friends or even acquiantance) to tell me whatever is going on with their lives. i dunno how does thst make me as a person or as a friend. but that is just who i am. well, going back to this friend of mine, i don't feel sorry for her--- i never did. i know how it feels to be down the drain and seems like everything and everyone can't change the way i am or i feel. nothing or no one can help. that's how i felt back then. not so much anymore. i would love to help her. i would love to be there but sometimes she frustrates me because all she thinks about is herself and much as she tries to make herslef feel better, it isn't working at all. i can feel how much pain, how bitter she feels. i really wanted to tell her to just let go. let everything go. it easier said than done. yes! but it is worth the try. i know it is because i did try doing it.
life is never fair, that's a fact. all we need to do is live with it and figure out how live with its complexities. no one said that everyone we know will like you, more so accept you as you are. so, it is just expected that we hear a lot of bad feedbacks about some things (if not everything) in us. they may hurt most of the time but that's how life is. and people can be so cruel at times. we can't always get what we want. we can't always have what what we aim for. we may not get what we really expect about life and love. we will often get brokenhearted and that's a reality. but if we keep on dwelling on those not-so-good things about life, then where will we be? what'll happen to us then? we'll all be sad and bitter. thus we'll all end up being depressed. sad, eh? so sad it is.
i know i can't change her coz i am not a miracle worker. she is the only one who can turn her life around. but running away won't solve or change anything. not even how you feel because old feelings will definitely haunt you down...
take life as it comes... let go of all the bad feelings that you have... and be happy, or at least try to be.

and as for my friend, i hope she knows that i am always here and that i do care.